BLOG

Do you avoid getting truly vulnerable? Here’s how to know…

Vulnerability in relationships is a tricky thing.

When it comes to love I hear from a lot of women, “I got vulnerable and I got burned, so why would I do it again?”

I totally get what they mean, and here’s what they are missing when it comes to TRUE vulnerability.

When most people say “I got vulnerable”, what they’re actually saying is they’ve expressed something to someone even though it was uncomfortable or even scary. Which seems about right? Well, here’s the catch…

The disconnect in how vulnerable we are actually happens when we’re also attached to the outcome and expect that outcome to match the level of vulnerability that is expressed. When it doesn’t match up, it causes us to shut down, not wanting to express ourselves or get vulnerable like that again.

Here’s one way that might play out.

You might tell a guy that you’ve been crushing on that you’re interested. That alone can feel like you got vulnerable, and to some degree you did.

But when you tell him that you like him, maybe you leave out the reasons why you feel this way, or skip telling him about certain moments where you thought you were both flirting because you aren’t sure how he will take it or if you’ll sound creepy. So you tailor your big reveal to what you think he will think. Logically this makes sense because we want to have the best outcome.

The thing is you are doing all of this in your mind.

You are guessing what he will say and do, guessing how someone will take it, guessing if they’ll think you are weird or crazy.

Then you finally get the nerve to tell him that you like him, and he comes back with “I’m flattered, but I just don’t see you that way.”

Of course this is such a disappointment because you put yourself out there thinking he might feel the same way. Then you feel totally stupid and rejected by even thinking you thought there was something more there.

Here’s another example.

You might tell your partner that you really need his support because you’re handling too much right now. Even saying that was difficult because you pride yourself on being independent and figuring things out by yourself.

He agrees, but then you don’t feel any more supported than before. So you feel let down because he said he would support you but didn’t follow through.

It makes you question him, and even the act of asking for help. You might even think, “I should know better than to ask someone for help. I just have to do it on my own.”

What if I told you there is a way to get vulnerable and feel freer maybe even better, even if the outcome isn’t what you expected or wanted. Almost like you’ve gotten exactly what you wanted out of the interaction because of your vulnerability…

Here’s the key.

Vulnerability and revealing how you feel or think about something has to come fully and energetically from being in your own body and expression.

Meaning, there can’t be any tailoring of your own self expression to fit what the other person may or may not think of you or what you’re saying.

When the expression comes fully from you from your own truth, no editing, you will feel freer, even if the outcome isn’t what you wanted or desired.

This doesn’t mean you won’t feel hurt or other feelings. You will.

But, you will also feel a lightness within it.

If you don’t feel that freedom, it’s a sign. It may mean you tailored, edited, or adjusted your truth.

I call this conscious vulnerability.

When I practice conscious vulnerability…

I’ve found that 8 times out of 10 when I say what’s true for me, take accountability for my experience and how I translated things, and ask for what I want and need, I usually get met in that expression by the other person.

It doesn’t matter if they agree or want the same thing, because deep down what I really wanted, what most of us really want is to be seen in that vulnerability.

But when we hold back, edit, or tailor our full expression because we’re scared they will misinterpret, not get it, be scared off, or we won’t ultimately get what we want…

…we forego feeling free from within.

Conscious vulnerability is particularly helpful when communicating with parents. The parent/child relationship (or those that raised us) is often one of the hardest in our lives, even if we’re close to them. And everything we experience in love today stems from that parent/child relationship.

When we allow ourselves to experience conscious vulnerability with them, and allow them to show up for us in a way we may not have allowed before, something shifts in the way we receive love forever.

Now I’d love to hear your thoughts. Do you practice conscious vulnerability? What experiences have you had when trying to get vulnerable? Leave me a comment below.

In Love,
Kavita

WANT MORE STUFF LIKE THIS?

Sign up for free updates

SHARE THIS POST

  • Mavis L. Johnson

    Hi Kavita,

    Yes, I do practice conscious vulnerability, and it feels very much like you describe. It is freeing to be comfortable expressing myself, regardless of how things turn out. It really is about being honest, open, and confident that “I” matter, that I have the right to be authentically who I am.

    Mavis

    • http://kavitajpatel.com Kavita J Patel

      Hi Mavis, that’s so great! Love it.

  • Andrea

    I’ve been on the brink of being truly vulnerable, but attachment to the outcome screws me up every time. I’m scared to say anything because the mere thought that he’ll say he doesn’t feel the same way hurts like hell…this is the only outcome I know. I went through your Soul Level Love program last year (although I’ll admit I didn’t complete all of the lovework), and I’m still stuck. I attract men that I don’t want, while struggling to attract men that I do want. I have some good days when I’m living in the moment and honoring who I am and my desires, but still no dates…and no relationship.

    • http://kavitajpatel.com Kavita J Patel

      Hi Andrea, what Lovework didn’t you complete?

  • miami pammie

    Hi Kavita, love you and your work. So genuine. I am practicing vulnerability. It doesn’t come easy. There has been a major guy in my life who I think I love. We started out strong a couple years ago hot and heavy quick then I withdrew a bit trying to build something solid and not just sexual. Also some life issues (his) got in the way. He then said he had nothing to offer me and the relationship was kiboshed. He has stayed in touch reaching out periodically. Kind of friendly. I would like to rekindle. But don’t know the right questions to ask or how to frame them. I know he’s been with atleast one other woman. Hurtful, since he said he had nothing to offer me. I dont know if they are still together or if she is just a side dish. I really feel we should be together. There is solid connection. He has trusted me with some of his deepest secrets, etc.
    There is a lot of fill in and back story with us. Anyway, What do I say to get to the point, gain true clarity and ask if he is interested in getting back together without seeming pushy or aggressive? I am frozen with fear because I want to do it right.. with love and genuine intent to move forward with the relationship. I feel it a similar situation that you had with your husband…that you were meant to be together.
    Thank you!!

  • Kristina

    I have a story how I was not consciously vulnerable -with a guy I liked, he flirted with me, but also he was ambivalent, stepped away, seduced me with his smile and then, did as I was not existing. I wanted, wanted to ask him about it. I made it only to tell him that I appreciate him, I gave him present…he run away emotionally….it was like he could have not hold it. I feel so free I did it ! I had no force to ask the next step “why this ambivalence”. I was scared. I felt he did not want me to ask. I was scared of his punishment of mine if I´d bring it up (whatever, being nasty, ridiculing me, gaslight me….what I know from family). Years after, I feel unfinished business concerning the fact of the ambivalence of his: why he invited me in order to be rejected later, repeated cycle ? (pattern of my father). If it should happen to me again, I´d love to put my courage together and ask about it. Thank you, Kavita.